If You So Desire My Despair
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Orphaned at a young age and drowning in her father's debts, Anastasia spent her days starving despite being a noble. One day, her uncle, Count Everdeen, proposed to pay off her family's debts if she agreed to get engaged to his enemy, Duke Theodore. Having no better alternatives, she accepted her uncle's offer and moved to Theodore's palace. Despised by Theodore and his servants, all kinds of mistreatments awaited Anastasia, from ruining her dress to serving her rotten food, with the last straw of Theodore telling her it was a good thing her parents died. However, Anastasia's lonely and depressing life takes a turn when she encounters a gentleman at a ball... Official Translations:
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Manhwa
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Published
August 30, 2024
Updated
September 16, 2025
If You So Desire My Despair Episodes
Chapter 95
December 27, 2024
Chapter 94
December 27, 2024
Chapter 93
December 27, 2024
Chapter 92
December 27, 2024
Chapter 91
December 27, 2024
Chapter 90
December 27, 2024
Chapter 89
December 27, 2024
Chapter 88
December 27, 2024
Chapter 87
December 27, 2024
Chapter 86
December 27, 2024
Chapter 85
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Chapter 84
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Chapter 83
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Chapter 82
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Chapter 81
December 27, 2024
Chapter 80
December 27, 2024
Chapter 79
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Chapter 78
December 27, 2024
Chapter 77
December 27, 2024
Chapter 76
December 27, 2024
Chapter 75
December 27, 2024
Chapter 74
December 27, 2024
Chapter 73
December 27, 2024
Chapter 72
December 27, 2024
Chapter 71
December 27, 2024
Chapter 70
December 27, 2024
Chapter 69
December 27, 2024
Chapter 68
December 27, 2024
Chapter 67
December 27, 2024
Chapter 66
December 27, 2024
Chapter 65
December 27, 2024
Chapter 64
December 27, 2024
Chapter 63
December 27, 2024
Chapter 62
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Chapter 61
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Chapter 60
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Chapter 59
December 27, 2024
Chapter 58
December 27, 2024
Chapter 57
December 27, 2024
Chapter 56
December 27, 2024
Chapter 55
December 27, 2024
Chapter 54
December 27, 2024
Chapter 53
December 27, 2024
Chapter 52
December 27, 2024
Chapter 51
December 27, 2024
Chapter 50
December 27, 2024
Chapter 49
December 27, 2024
Chapter 48
December 27, 2024
Chapter 47
December 27, 2024
Chapter 46
December 27, 2024
Chapter 45
December 27, 2024
Chapter 44
December 27, 2024
Chapter 43
December 27, 2024
Chapter 42
December 27, 2024
Chapter 41
December 27, 2024
Chapter 40
December 27, 2024
Chapter 39
August 30, 2024
Chapter 38
August 30, 2024
Chapter 37
August 30, 2024
Chapter 36
August 30, 2024
Chapter 35
August 30, 2024
Chapter 34
August 30, 2024
Chapter 33
August 30, 2024
Chapter 32
August 30, 2024
Chapter 31
August 30, 2024
Chapter 30
August 30, 2024
Chapter 29
August 30, 2024
Chapter 28
August 30, 2024
Chapter 27
August 30, 2024
Chapter 26
August 30, 2024
Chapter 25
August 30, 2024
Chapter 24
August 30, 2024
Chapter 23
August 30, 2024
Chapter 22
August 30, 2024
Chapter 21
August 30, 2024
Chapter 20
August 30, 2024
Chapter 19
August 30, 2024
Chapter 18
August 30, 2024
Chapter 17
August 30, 2024
Chapter 16
August 30, 2024
Chapter 15
August 30, 2024
Chapter 14
August 30, 2024
Chapter 13
August 30, 2024
Chapter 12
August 30, 2024
Chapter 11
August 30, 2024
Chapter 10
August 30, 2024
Chapter 9
August 31, 2024
Chapter 8
August 30, 2024
Chapter 7
August 30, 2024
Chapter 6
August 30, 2024
Chapter 5
August 30, 2024
Chapter 4
August 30, 2024
Chapter 3
August 31, 2024
Chapter 2
August 30, 2024
Chapter 1
August 30, 2024
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