If You So Desire My Despair
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Orphaned at a young age and drowning in her father's debts, Anastasia spent her days starving despite being a noble. One day, her uncle, Count Everdeen, proposed to pay off her family's debts if she agreed to get engaged to his enemy, Duke Theodore. Having no better alternatives, she accepted her uncle's offer and moved to Theodore's palace. Despised by Theodore and his servants, all kinds of mistreatments awaited Anastasia, from ruining her dress to serving her rotten food, with the last straw of Theodore telling her it was a good thing her parents died. However, Anastasia's lonely and depressing life takes a turn when she encounters a gentleman at a ball... Official Translations:
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Manhwa
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Published
August 30, 2024
Updated
September 12, 2025
If You So Desire My Despair Episodes
Chapter 95
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Chapter 94
December 27, 2024
Chapter 93
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Chapter 92
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Chapter 91
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Chapter 90
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Chapter 89
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Chapter 88
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Chapter 87
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Chapter 86
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Chapter 85
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Chapter 84
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Chapter 83
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Chapter 82
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Chapter 81
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Chapter 80
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Chapter 79
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Chapter 78
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Chapter 77
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Chapter 76
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Chapter 75
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Chapter 74
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Chapter 73
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Chapter 72
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Chapter 71
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Chapter 70
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Chapter 69
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Chapter 68
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Chapter 67
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Chapter 66
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Chapter 65
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Chapter 64
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Chapter 63
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Chapter 62
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Chapter 61
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Chapter 60
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Chapter 59
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Chapter 58
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Chapter 57
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Chapter 56
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Chapter 55
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Chapter 54
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Chapter 53
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Chapter 52
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Chapter 51
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Chapter 50
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Chapter 49
December 27, 2024
Chapter 48
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Chapter 47
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Chapter 46
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Chapter 45
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Chapter 44
December 27, 2024
Chapter 43
December 27, 2024
Chapter 42
December 27, 2024
Chapter 41
December 27, 2024
Chapter 40
December 27, 2024
Chapter 39
August 30, 2024
Chapter 38
August 30, 2024
Chapter 37
August 30, 2024
Chapter 36
August 30, 2024
Chapter 35
August 30, 2024
Chapter 34
August 30, 2024
Chapter 33
August 30, 2024
Chapter 32
August 30, 2024
Chapter 31
August 30, 2024
Chapter 30
August 30, 2024
Chapter 29
August 30, 2024
Chapter 28
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Chapter 27
August 30, 2024
Chapter 26
August 30, 2024
Chapter 25
August 30, 2024
Chapter 24
August 30, 2024
Chapter 23
August 30, 2024
Chapter 22
August 30, 2024
Chapter 21
August 30, 2024
Chapter 20
August 30, 2024
Chapter 19
August 30, 2024
Chapter 18
August 30, 2024
Chapter 17
August 30, 2024
Chapter 16
August 30, 2024
Chapter 15
August 30, 2024
Chapter 14
August 30, 2024
Chapter 13
August 30, 2024
Chapter 12
August 30, 2024
Chapter 11
August 30, 2024
Chapter 10
August 30, 2024
Chapter 9
August 31, 2024
Chapter 8
August 30, 2024
Chapter 7
August 30, 2024
Chapter 6
August 30, 2024
Chapter 5
August 30, 2024
Chapter 4
August 30, 2024
Chapter 3
August 31, 2024
Chapter 2
August 30, 2024
Chapter 1
August 30, 2024
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